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  I am not sure how much longer I can sit here and stare at a blank screen getting all emotional and upset.  I guess – like ripping off a band aid – the only thing to do is come right out and address it.
   At the end of this month I will be moving to Charlotte, North Carolina to begin a new adventure running the CrossFit facilities at Attitude Nation Gym with Jon and Jessica North.
   Yes, that Jon North.  The same Jon North I became a huge fan of a little less than a year ago. 
   And now, I will be working with him.  
   Amazing how life can change.
   It is a dream come true… an opportunity that I once would have never thought possible.  I will be a part of the Attitude Nation; I will have a chance to be on “Weightlifting Talk” representing this community and sport of CrossFit we love so damn much.  I will have a huge platform to share with people what we here at CrossFit Koa have come to just know is true: we can change more than your weight, more than your waste size, and more than your 1 rep max back squat… we can change your whole life.
   But as I sit here typing these words, I can feel – literally feel – my heart breaking.  CrossFit Koa has been my life.  Since meeting Josh in his garage back in the summer of 2010, my entire life changed.  His offer to join him, Steve and Tom as a trainer in this new CrossFit gym was just as exciting and exhilarating to me then as moving to Charlotte is for me now.  They opened the door for me to pursue something I was sincerely and deeply passionate about.  I had been training CrossFit for a while and had truly come to love it.  But it wasn’t just about getting people fit that motivated me and it definitely wasn’t money.  To me, it was all about bringing people into CrossFit Koa and helping them become something they never knew they could be.  It was about connecting with people and letting them know that I would do whatever I had to so that they could meet their goals, and letting them know my investment in them was real and unconditional.  It was about being more than a coach, a trainer, an instructor… it was about being a motivator, a mentor, and most importantly a friend. 
   CrossFit Koa allowed me to do all of these things and it has been nothing short of magical.  The people I have met along the way have made me feel like I truly am the luckiest man in the world with the greatest job in the world.  Some have stayed, some have gone, but every single person in one way or another has made an impact on me during their time at CrossFit Koa.  The memories, the experiences, the relationships… how on earth could I possibly put into words how valuable those things are to me?  How they have shaped my life and provided me with a sense of value and self-worth that wasn’t always there for me?  How could I thank Josh, Steve and Tom and every single one of you enough for what you have done for me?  Anything I could write or say just seems so inadequate but you have to know it… I need all of you to know how much I care about you and appreciate every single day I was able to be with you.  I know non-CrossFit Koa members might be reading this and think “This guy is nuts!  It’s just a gym!” but for all the members of CrossFit Koa, you know exactly what I am talking about.  And that is fine because this blog is and always has been for all of you and nobody else. 
   Phew.  I have got to wrap this up because sitting at the Clark Public Library sniffling and fighting back tears in front of two librarians and an old guy reading what appears to be a dictionary (strange…) is just not a good look.  Seriously what must I look like right now… tattoos, backwards hat, rippling muscles (hahahahaha) bottle of Spark by my side, and snot and tears on my face.  Ridiculous. 
   This is not a good-bye because I will never ever separate from CrossFit Koa.  I will never miss a chance to come back and visit and I will never stop being friends with all of you (Facebook and Twitter WHAT WHAT #gettwitterifyoudonthaveit).  I hope that you will not forget about me although I am sure that will be unavoidable once I am replaced… but I do not want to even think about it.  Right now, the thought of someone taking my place is like thinking about seeing your significant other kissing someone else… just aint right!!  But I digress…
   I want to thank each and every one of you at CrossFit Koa for changing my life for the better.  Thank you Josh, Steve and Tom for never acting like bosses but always being my friends.  Thank you to all of the members for laughing at my stupid jokes and bearing with me when I ran out of Spark and got a little cranky.  Thank you to the police guy who wrote me all of those parking tickets for being a few minutes over… actually, there really is no need to thank you. 
   I can leave at peace knowing that I am leaving you all in good hands.  Josh - the Godfather of it all - will still be running the show.  John, Mike, Joe, Megan, Paula, Marissa and Brie are all outstanding coaches and are going to continue to do an amazing job. 
   Time to go out like ROCK STARS!  Let’s have as much fun training as possible in the next two weeks.  I promise to give you all everything I have right up until the very last day.  And I expect you guys to do the same!!  For now, I will leave you with this one quote.  I think it sums things up perfectly…
“Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.”
― J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan